The first time that I heard the name Placebo

 The first time I heard the name Placebo

  by Monique Nickay Laubscher from Rustenburg, South Africa in colaboration with Placebo Anyway

If I may, I would like to share something for the 20 year anniversary I saw a picture that you posted earlier today and you asked when was the first time that I fell in love with Placebo. Well, this is my story.

  
I would not say that I am their biggest fan, because I have only learned about them a few years ago. And I am sure there are crazier Placebo fans out there. Yes, I have all their albums. Yes, I know every single song by heart. Yes, I freak out when I hear them play. Yes, they leave me breathless, just like any other fan girl. But what I can say is that I will never EVER forget the first time that I heard the name Placebo. 

It was an exceedingly arctic night. The winter sky was hazed and the wind whisked through the tallest of trees as we passed them by. My body gradually felt beyond the aching cold when the warm breeze of the heater circulated in the car. 

I extended my arms from the passenger seat and he cupped both my hands in his left hand and brought it to his lips. My icy fingers twitched subconsciously when his humid breath soothed over my frozen hands as his lips puckered my skin. And in that moment, I heard the song that changed my life. 

"Don't go and leave me. And please don't drive me blind," the divinely nasal vocals crooned through the car speakers. I gazed up at him, his eyes were passive on the road and the street lights reflected orange on his pale skin. A rush of unknown emotions spread like a blazing wild fire through me.

 Maybe it was the drugs, maybe it was the alcohol, maybe it was the lyrics, maybe it was the music, maybe it was him, or maybe it was all of it fused into one. In that exact moment, I surrendered completely and my eyes shut and it became my most hazardous addiction of all. It was our band. We got drunk, we were high, we laughed, we kissed and we made vehement love; we made memories to Placebo. 

I fell in love with Placebo because I found bits of him in their music. It made sense, like him. It was different, like him. It was passionate, like him. It was addictive, like him. It was tremendously beautiful, like him. Bright - loud - effective - enticing. 

Placebo came with him. Both blew life into my lungs and I have never felt more alive. I have not known passion and desire before either. But he is gone now, and even so, I still have Placebo. I later found that I have known a few other songs of theirs before that night, and that in fact, the first songs that I had actually heard from Placebo, was Pure Morning, Every you Every Me and The Bitter End. I just never knew who sang these amazing songs. 

 My love for this band is beyond time and space, beyond measurement and beyond comprehension. They remind me of better days. They give me a voice to speak. They tell me that it is okay to cross the lines and break the rules every now and then. They give me experience. They inspire me. They teach me about life and love, passion and desire. 

Words can never define them or the emotional connection that I share with them. They are waves of excitement that roll over my soul, and cleanse internal wounds. It sends shivers down my spine when the mesmerizing sound of Brian Molko's vocals soak into every single one of my pores. The lyrics are transcending. The music entrances me. They are ecstasy. 

And now I love Placebo because I find bits of myself in them. I found myself through them. And this is why I adore them the most. I truly, madly, deeply love Placebo. They are the sweetest taste I know. They are my privilege and my pleasure. 

The privilege to share my wildest moments with him, and the heights of pleasure that I would never be able to experience with any other band or artist. They are the drug and I am the weird fixated girl. I want them, no, I NEED them in my life. They take my mind to places that I have never known. It is exhilarating, electrifying and I never want to get off this high.

Placebo is my true soulmate. Nothing more, nothing less.

They shall please.

A special Thank You to Monique Nickay Laubscher

Design by SusanneCk - Placebo Anyway

Pictures: Cristina Gamarra, Placebo Gallerynet, Pinterest, FanArt unknown sources.