tonight we symbolically end the lullabies from the ๐๐๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐ค๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ข๐, which is an iconic rock hit in its original fast version. But thanks to Placebo's playfulness and Brian's insistence on not being bored with his music, we can listen to this slow musical gem before falling asleep.
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| Photo credit: Benni Valsson |
https://bit.ly/3Y9xehQ
๐น๐ถ ๐๐๐๐ - ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง
https://bit.ly/3Hrfesu
⭐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐:
Meds is the opening track of the self-titled album released in 2006.
๐น๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐:
"I wrote it during my stay in India, like 'Song to say goodbye'. 'Meds' is about loosing yourself, not recognizing yourself. You feel lost, desperate, and you don't know what you think anymore, what you really feel. It's a very disturbing feeling, for me and for everyone, and I wanted to express it. I'm glad it's the opening song of the album, it's the 1st time a Placebo record opens with an acoustic chord."
(๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ๐๐, ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐ ๐ธ00๐ผ)
"An addiction is a form of escape: you run away from yourself. It's a way of not facing life, to make things worse. Of course, you can have more or less control over it. It depends on whether the problem is due to your environment or whether it comes from your chromosomes. Sometimes it's hard to face things. To look at yourself with detachment. Living empirically, experimenting, is always easier than "following a path", but at the end of the day, you can't run away forever. At some point, you have to deal with all aspects of your life. Even the most painful ones."
(๐ฟ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ด๐ฑ๐พ ๐ธ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐ต๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ ๐ธ00๐ผ)
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| Photo credit: Chris Crisman |
๐๐โ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐...๐ฅ
I have a very deep personal connection to this song and will be very open in this post... because I know I'm not the only one whose life has been changed by Placebo music.
๐๐๐๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ซ๐๐ง๐จ๐๐ค๐ฃ is something that gave me chills and nausea at one important stage in my life.
Maybe you know it too. A song you've known for years suddenly turns into a demon. It's in your ears all the time, day and night...
You can't get rid of the notes, the words. They come up in many everyday situations. And you don't want to hear it anymore because because it hurts...
It happened when MEDS was already 10 years old. I don't want to share very painful details, but I was going through a period that I wouldn't wish anyone in the world to experience.
The mental pain from the situation that totally wounded me was reflected psychosomatically in my physical body... and I cried out for help with every cell of my being and I've only encountered a lack of understanding from those closest to me.
I still remember the moment when this slow version first hit me right in the heart. I was listening to music before falling asleep and suddenly I was sitting on my bed crying.
๐๐ฐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ป๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.๐ฅ
The outline of the shadow lying beside me was insensitive to my emotions and I suddenly realized the depth of my problem. The fact that I try to maintain an image of my perfect happiness in front of the whole world and yet it was such a lie... It's an image of my addiction. Not on drugs, but on a dysfunctional marriage and family paradigm.
๐น'...๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ, ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฆ... ๐๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต,
...๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ซ๐ฐ๐บ, ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐จ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฆ... ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ช๐ค ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฆ...'
The line about meds was suddenly like a mockery to me... ๐น"๐๐ข๐ฃ๐บ..๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐ด?"
No one cared how I really felt.
๐น'...๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ง๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ, ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐ฆ๐ด,
...๐๐ข๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด ๐ฃ๐บ, ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐ข๐ด ๐ช๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต...'
๐๐ญ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ, a very deep cleansing process started in my inner world. The process where I got out of the phase of blaming others for my situation and started blaming myself.
๐น'...๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ, ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฆ, ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต,..
...๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ถ๐ด, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ด ๐ช ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ด๐ญ๐ช๐ฑ...'
I think that even in psychology these individual phases are described in detail.
This unwanted and unwelcome anthem was ringing in my ears every day and I couldn't escape it.
If you fight something in anger and hatred, it keeps coming back, even stronger, to finally bring you down.
๐Thoughts of suicide appeared... after all, I'm just a burden to everyone and myself.
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| Photo credit: Benni Valsson |
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.
But Meds for me will always be the song that on a subconscious level broke down the totally barricaded door to my wounded ego that wanted to stay hidden and feel sorry for itself until the very end.
Today, the slow version of Meds is a favorite lullaby for me. I love these Placebo acoustic songs and I will be happy if you enjoy this perfection with me tonight.
In these videos that I have selected for you, you can see how time went with this song.
๐น๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฌ - ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฃ๐๐ง๐๐ซ๐จ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐ง๐๐จ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐
https://bit.ly/3jilJ9h
๐น๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฌ - ๐๐ข๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
http://bit.ly/3XT6jad
๐น๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฌ - ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง, ๐๐๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐
https://bit.ly/3YbRkYQ
๐น๐ถAnd of course - I took ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐ ๐ฏ๐ข๐๐๐จ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐๐๐จ'๐ฌ ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐ก๐ญ๐๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, which for me personally is absolutely the best performance (although it is basically on the first position with the video from ANGKOR WAT).
Post by Marti
