Placebo FanArt by Amazia Shining

Dear Soulmates

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As the Placebo Anyway Team was kind enough to let me share some of my paintings with you – here I am. I don’t want to bore anyone with ridiculous long introductions, but there are a few things I’d like to tell. I know there are much better artworks around, but I’m proud of mine for a reason anyway.

As some of you might remember from the iTunes-Festival review &  Placebo UK & Irish Tour - Placebo20 review I wrote, my whole life was kind of paused for around 7 years. I used to draw and paint a lot when I was younger, even attended art school but couldn’t finish for mental health issues. I can’t even say what exactly the problem was besides from constantly being scared - scared of leaving the house, scared of failure, scared of not being good enough. Those fears , which have been there as long as I can remember, eventually stopped me completely from being what I could have been if I had been just a bit stronger.


But a few years ago I finally woke up and managed to start living again. It took me another year or two finding the courage and strength to get back to creating instead of just consuming. There are still months in which I can’t even start sketching, but I found a way back and that’s all that matters to me right now. I know I don’t wanted to make a long introduction (sorry) but I just wanted to show you my progress and tell you, all of you, but especially those who think they can’t do something just because they haven’t done it in ages (I hear that a lot especially when it comes to creative things), one thing: Don’t let your fear of failure or the fact it can be damn frustrating if things don’t immediately turn out the way you wished them to stop you from trying.

As I said before I know my paintings aren’t by far the best around, and I’m terribly anxious every time I share one of them, so it’s a huge, scary thing for me to start this album. Maybe it doesn’t help anyone, maybe no one even likes my pictures but anyway, I tried. And if I can just encourage one person to take a sheet of paper and a pencil and draw or write or do whatever he or she wants with it, it was worth all the fear.


There’s something my father used to say: “There’s no greater freedom in the world than a sheet of paper and a pen.“ 
He used to say that all the time and I tend to agree with him.
So if you feel like it, forget your fears and insecurities and do whatever you want.
Sorry for this damn long and as usual far too emotional introduction (I’m not even angry if no one even reads the whole thing), and thank you Susanne for encouraging me although I feel like a terrible nuisance for being so insecure.

Thank you , thank you, thank you.

I hope you enjoy the pictures shared here and forgive me for being such a hopeless mess


Love
Amy

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Amazia Shining
(Photo by Sweet Hope by sglahe - Kaleidoscope Kustoms on Flickr )